Biggest Loser Challenge

Well, The Biggest Loser Challenge on Spark people starts Monday. I am hoping to lose the weight that I have always wanted to lose. I am hoping that the team I am on will keep me motivated to keep going. I hope that I will be able to eat what I need to eat and exercise when I need to exercise. My plan is to lose 24 lbs by Christmas. That is 2 lbs a week.

I think if I continue with the no soda, no fast food. I actually need to start planning more meals at home instead of eating out every night. That is the goal for this week. To plan meals at home and eat them at home. I also am planning to exercise every day.

Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday are my cardio days. Options for cardio are Biggest Loser videos, dancing, walking around the block- 2 miles,

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday are strength training days. Options for strength are Biggest Loser videos, strength training exercises from Spark people


Well, I'll update once I start the challenge. We'll see how it goes.

The Biggest Loser

Well, I am almost off of the Predizone, and I have been getting more and more motivated this week. I have started watching The Biggest Loser. Unfortunately, my stupid Replay has either not recorded or deleted it before I get around to watching it. I have been watching last season's episodes and that has gotten me motivated.

I really want to change myself. There are so many things I want to change about myself. I have looked into the MAC and am still waiting to hear back about their prices. I think that will be my Christmas present to myself. I will buy a gym membership and personal trainer. I do however need to get my diet together before I start paying for a personal trainer.

I also received a great spark mail message from a member of the BLF team. It had to do with this past week's episode. (Which I haven't seen yet, but will hopefully soon. ) On the last episode, one of the contestants was about to give up and the trainer asked that person "What are your choices?" This question made me think. What are my choices? I can chose to stay on the path that I am now, and end up just like my parents. My mom has to have surgery soon because she of being over weight and other medical problems. What are my choices? Do I want to end up having so many medical problems that I will not be able to enjoy life or do I want to be there for my children and grandchildren? Do I want to be testing my blood sugar 4 times a day or do I want to eat what I want in moderation? Do I want to be shopping in the plus sized section or do I want to buy any clothes that I want? Do I want to be limited by what I can do or do I want to do anything I put my mind to? These are my choices, and now it is up to me to decide what I chose. I plan to make little cards with that question on it. WHAT ARE MY CHOICES ???!!??? WHAT DO I CHOOSE????

Mixed feelings

So last week, I didn't post my weigh in because I had been battling poison ivy. I am still battling it, plus it is that time of the quarter for me. How great do I feel? LOL. Anyways, I went back to the doctor today because I started breaking out with a new rash. Lucky me, huh? She put me on another round of steroids. Here I go again, bulking up. Last week the steroids (or at least that's what I am blaming it on) made me gain 2 pounds. But today at the doctor I was back at 207. So I am not sure what is going on. I lost weight the week before my period? What the hell? Now that I am going back on steroids I will need to watch my weight for the next 2 weeks. Anyways, I am going to continue to eat less, add vegetables and fruits when I can and exercise more. Now that I will hopefully not be itching all the flipping time.

Yesterday, I was having a very hard time with my weight and my depression. I was at a wedding and everything was fine, but then I started thinking about my wedding and all the things that went wrong. I just wanted to start bawling and not stop. This whole weekend has been hard. I got mad at Josh Friday night, over something pretty small. Then I got pulled over for running a stop sign and was mad at myself. I got really depressed about my weigh yesterday. I think I need to go back on my my anti-depressants. I know it is that time of the month but I have been pretty emotional since I came off the meds. I need to call my doctor tomorrow to see if I can go back on them or something else.

We'll see how everything goes. I am trying so hard to get myself well, so I can be my best for Josh. We shouldn't be having this many problems 2 months into our marriage. I know it is because of my depression, and some of his depression. He just won't get the treatment he needs. All I can fix is me. You can't make anyone do anything. You can just keep suggesting help and being there for them.

Poison Ivy Sucks!!

So, I did this great work out last weekend and worked in my yard for two hours. Everything was fine and dandy until Monday night when I continued to work in the yard. That night I found the poison ivy. So for the past week I have not worked out because I have been too itchy. I have tried everything to stop the itching and feel better. I have tried clear calamine lotion, Ivy Dry (which has really helped with the itching), pink calamine lotion, hot water/shower, and a hair dryer. I am also on steroids to try to combat it from the inside. So far the only thing that is helping is the ivy-dry. It has done pretty good at stopping the itching. I just wish it would go away!!!

I am beginning to believe that weight loss is not going to work for me. Every week I get started again, find a great workout idea and some how I injure myself. The first week it was lunges, great for my thighs and arse, but then I couldn't walk for a week because I was in so much pain. Last week, I got active in the yard and burned so many calories, but now I have poison ivy and am itchy with weird skin deformations all over me.

Oh well, I will keep on. this week I am suppose to add a piece of fruit. We'll see how that goes.