AHHHHH....

Ok, So I really don't have anyone to blame but me for my lack of weight loss. And apparently, I think I have give up the wrong diet vice. Recently, I have decided that Chinese take-out is my diet vice. I really need to stock our fridge so I don't go out and buy things that are not healthy for me. For example, chinese take out. I has been so easy to just run to Hy-Vee and pick up a meal. I think this is my true diet vice. With as many calories and fat (if I get the sweet and sour chicken) that are in Chinese take out, I have not been doing myself right. This week all around has been a bad week for my vice busting diet. I haven't gotten in my water on most days.

The goal this week was fast food. Ok so I haven't gone to a place with a drive through. Yeah for me a small accomplishment. I also haven't cooked at home really at all this week. So that means I must have eaten somewhere else. If fact I did. I ate a sit down restaurants where their portions are out of control and I didn't bring any home with me. So that means I ate it all. Guess how many calories that must have been.

The goal for this upcoming week is exercise before TV or computer. So that means I really should get off this computer and get my but moving. Oh but I am too lazy today. I did mow the lawn yesterday, but we have a riding lawn mower so I don't think it was that beneficial. I did clean and vacuum the house. Yeah a small step. I am thinking of going to Curves for a few months. I have a two week free trial from Avon that I need to use up soon. When I go they will fill me in on how much body fat I have and take all kinds of measurements. I think with my new job I should be able to afford the membership fee. And it's only 30 minutes. I can come home and shower after the workout. If they don't have showers there.

I am getting really disappointed with my lack of weight loss. I have actually gained weight this week. There have been a lot of changes in my life this week also however. I have started a new job, quit another job, applied for a second job, ate like crap, and went off my Lexapro. That has been a fiasco, but I think I am beginning to recover. I keep reading more about diet and exercise and nothing seems to work. I think my goal for next week (along with visualizing my healthy life) will be to track everything that enters my mouth. If I get an honest answers as to what is going in my mouth I may be able to figure out why I am not losing weigh but in fact gaining it.

Well, I think I am going to get in the shower and go to Curves. Maybe I can get my tour and fat analysis done today. I will post how that is going. We'll see ya later!