Success!!

So far at least! I didn't keep very good track of my success last week, but this week has been awesome. I have gotten 7 stickers since the beginning of Dec. I have also lost 5 lbs since last week. I am down to 202. I hope to be down another 5 lbs next week. We will see how I do on my consistency for this week. I have gotten 3 stickers the last two days but they haven't been for the same goals. My goal this week is to get 3 stickers every day. We'll see how it goes. Next report soon!!

Losing weight for now!

Ok, I think I have finally hit rock bottom. Thank God!!! I can actually get started on my true weight loss journey. Last night, I went out with a few of Josh's friends. We went to the new club downtown (which I must say is awesome). It has a regular bar atmosphere side and also a nightclub side. We spent most of the night on the night club side. Which is where I had my realization. One of the girls I was dancing with was super skinny and the other was not small but not huge by any means. Then there was me. With my big ass. (Yes this post may get a little down on myself, but that's ok. I am now working to change that.) In this club, they have mirrors on one side. Which for me was a good thing. I kept looking at them while I danced. As I was looking in the mirror I actually had a realization. Usually when I look in the mirror (I have reverse anorexia) - if I am wearing something that I think looks good on me, I think of myself smaller than I am. But last night, I didn't. I still thought my outfit was cute, but I actually looked FAT. Yes, I said it, I looked FAT!!! So now I have decided I really need to work on my weight issues. I have never been thin, and that's not what I am going for now. I just want to look good, sexy and fun when I go out dancing. I love to go to the club and dance. Not so much drink, but I love to dance. Yes, I understand I am a white girl and I am rhythmically challenged, but I still love to go out an dance. I want to look good when I do it. I know you shouldn't compare yourself to anyone else, but I think that is what I need to do to get me started, at least until I start seeing results.

Now that I have my plan in place and have hit rock bottom, I think I will be able to achieve my goals. Sure, I could have achieved my goals before, but I think for anyone to truly change it takes them reaching a rock bottom or having a huge epiphany about their goal and where they are starting from. They also need to have a real want to achieve the goal. I have that new want. I want to look good when I go out dancing, not afraid of what everyone is saying about that FAT ass out dancing.

So I have a new motivation for my weight loss. Yes, I am still losing weight for a million other reasons, I have finally realized why I really want to lose weight. The other reasons are all for the future, this reason is for now. I want to look good on the dance floor at the club. I know we will be going out more often and each time I want to look my best. I want to be able to dress in "slut" clothes by this summer and actually have a right to wear those clothes. Right now, I do not have that right.

If anyone wants to join my in my journey, feel free to comment back. Thanks for reading my incredibly long post. But this is what I needed.

New plan

After being on a weight loss roller coaster for the past few weeks, I finally took some time to refocus my goals and plans. I have come up with a new reward system that will hopefully keep me motivated on my weight loss journey. I weighed in this past week back at 208. Which means vacation was not as nice to me as I thought. While I was on vacation though I got a massage, and that got me thinking that I should reward myself with another one when I lose 20 lbs. I thought it was a great idea, until I did some more reading. The reading mentioned that you should reward consistency and not just results. That made so much more since to me. If I could learn to be consistent with my nutrition and exercise, I would see the results I wanted. So I developed my new plan. I still need to go by stickers for this but I have everything else that I need to get started. Today however I didn't do so well. I haven't add all my calories together, but I think I am a little over. I also haven't done any exercise today or gotten my water. I am 1/2 a serving away from my fruits and veggies goal. Better luck tomorrow!!

RULES:

I get one sticker/checkmark for each goal I reach for the day.

If I do not track my calorie intake, I cannot earn that sticker.

I get one sticker for each pound I lose.

If I gain the weight back on though I will cross a sticker off for each pound I gain back.

I also must fill in the calendar the day of or the day after to receive the sticker. If it is more than 2 days after the date, I cannot receive the stickers for those accomplishments.

I will write the goals I am currently working on, on the calendar.

Area	goal	Date Started
Cardio	Burn at least 300 calories a day
	350 calories a day
	400 calories a day
	450 calories a day
	500 calories a day
Eating	Within calorie range
Fruits and Veggies	3 servings a day
	4 servings a day
	5 servings a day
Strength Training	2x 15 modified/wall push-ups, 2x 15 lunges, 2x 15 bicycle crunches
	2x 15 modified/wall pushups, 2x 15 walking lunges, 2x 15 bicycle crunches
Water	6 - 8oz glasses
	7 - 8oz glasses
	8 – 8oz glasses

LIMITS:

Eat out no more than 2x a week (8x per month)

Drink no more than one diet soda a week (4 times per month)

Drink no more than one alcoholic drink a week (4 times per month)

REWARDS:

For each day that I earn all of my stickers, I get one new song from iTunes.

For each 25 stickers, I get a new charm for my charm bracelet.

For every other set of 50 stickers, I get one of my small rewards.

For each 100 stickers, I get one of my medium rewards.

For each month I stay under my limits, I get 5 stickers and a large reward.

For 500 stickers, I get a new iPod or new piece of fitness equipment.

Small	Medium	large
CD	manicure	massage (30 mins)
haircut	pedicure	hair coloring
eyebrow waxing	one new article of clothing	new outfit (clothes, accessories, shoes)
magazine subscription	facial	digital scrapbooking book
DVD	flowers/plants	teeth whitening
fitness equipment	date night with josh	night at a hotel
book	kitchen appliance
bubble bath	lingerie
night of bingo
kitchen gadget
candles

Almost there!

I have almost reached my first milestone. I wanted to be under 200 lbs by my honeymoon. I am at 201 and I have 1 and a 1/2 weeks to go until my honeymoon. Yeah!! This week, I am planning on drinking my water, and not eating out. So far I haven't done very good about not eating out, but I have gotten my water in this week. Ok so the week started 2 days ago, but that is good for me so far. More news later.

New toy

Last week, I noticed a post on my local Buy, Sell, Trade board for a gazelle for $40. That was such a great deal, so I decided to go for it. I picked it up Thursday, and got it all set up. I did 15 minutes on it Thursday. It felt great to finally have a piece of equipment at my house that I can just move onto the floor and work out on. I can chose the shows I watch while working out, I can chose my music. I think this is a great start to a wonderful weight loss.

So I got on my Gazelle today, and decided to watch The Biggest Loser. We had it recorded, so I set my timer for 30 minutes. Well, my timer went off and my husband said "Oh just keep going to the end of the show." I was like, ok it's only 10 more minutes, since I don't watch the commercials. I kept going, starting to think, ok, shouldn't this be getting over soon. I had forgotten that it was an hour and half long show. So a half hour longer than I had planned to be on the gazelle, I finally get off the machine.

So I got 60 minutes of cardio in today. Which feels good, because I stepped on the scale this morning and it was up. That depressed me a little (especially after the big 3 lb loss I had last week), but I decided to work harder rather than give up. That right there is a big accomplishment for me!!! Normally I would lose a few, then gain a few back, then give up and resort back to my old habits. Or I would lose a few, think it was because I just needed to eat more, so I would continue these habits and end up gaining weight back. This week I think I am going to end up gaining a little back, but if I keep up the work that I started this week, I will end up achieving my goal for my honeymoon. I wish I could watch the biggest loser where they went to Jamaica right before I head on my honeymoon. I think that would help a lot when I go. Wish me well.

Time to Celebrate!!

Well, maybe not have a party for me yet, but I have made a lot of progress in the past week. I have tracked my calories everyday this week (since Tuesday) and have been under my calories every day!!!! I have even had Chick-fil-a, Wendy's, KFC and chinese. Not that these will become a normal diet for me, but I have proven to myself that I can have what I want eat, I just need to watch my portion sizes and when I have them. Obviously, I can't have them all in one day, and I can't have most of the fried stuff I normal would get. But it is nice knowing that I can eat what I want as long as I make good choices about what that is. We will see how this all factors into my weight in on Monday. Well, it's time for me to go work in the yard or start dancing. I think I will try for 30 mins of dancing, in 15 minutes chunks of course. I can do anything in 15 mins.

Ok, so I started the Biggest Loser through Spark People. I have lost 3 lbs in the last 2 weeks. I have about 6 more lbs to go before I go on my honeymoon in 30 days. Just think a month from today I will be sitting on the beach relaxing. I need to really kick my butt in gear and get moving. I did start sweating at work this week because I was walking back and forth from the back room to the floor. I hope to be under the 200 mark by my honeymoon. I would be ecstatic if I could get under obese level BMI before my honeymoon. Anyways, enough of me blabbing on.

Biggest Loser Challenge

Well, The Biggest Loser Challenge on Spark people starts Monday. I am hoping to lose the weight that I have always wanted to lose. I am hoping that the team I am on will keep me motivated to keep going. I hope that I will be able to eat what I need to eat and exercise when I need to exercise. My plan is to lose 24 lbs by Christmas. That is 2 lbs a week.

I think if I continue with the no soda, no fast food. I actually need to start planning more meals at home instead of eating out every night. That is the goal for this week. To plan meals at home and eat them at home. I also am planning to exercise every day.

Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday are my cardio days. Options for cardio are Biggest Loser videos, dancing, walking around the block- 2 miles,

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday are strength training days. Options for strength are Biggest Loser videos, strength training exercises from Spark people


Well, I'll update once I start the challenge. We'll see how it goes.

The Biggest Loser

Well, I am almost off of the Predizone, and I have been getting more and more motivated this week. I have started watching The Biggest Loser. Unfortunately, my stupid Replay has either not recorded or deleted it before I get around to watching it. I have been watching last season's episodes and that has gotten me motivated.

I really want to change myself. There are so many things I want to change about myself. I have looked into the MAC and am still waiting to hear back about their prices. I think that will be my Christmas present to myself. I will buy a gym membership and personal trainer. I do however need to get my diet together before I start paying for a personal trainer.

I also received a great spark mail message from a member of the BLF team. It had to do with this past week's episode. (Which I haven't seen yet, but will hopefully soon. ) On the last episode, one of the contestants was about to give up and the trainer asked that person "What are your choices?" This question made me think. What are my choices? I can chose to stay on the path that I am now, and end up just like my parents. My mom has to have surgery soon because she of being over weight and other medical problems. What are my choices? Do I want to end up having so many medical problems that I will not be able to enjoy life or do I want to be there for my children and grandchildren? Do I want to be testing my blood sugar 4 times a day or do I want to eat what I want in moderation? Do I want to be shopping in the plus sized section or do I want to buy any clothes that I want? Do I want to be limited by what I can do or do I want to do anything I put my mind to? These are my choices, and now it is up to me to decide what I chose. I plan to make little cards with that question on it. WHAT ARE MY CHOICES ???!!??? WHAT DO I CHOOSE????

Mixed feelings

So last week, I didn't post my weigh in because I had been battling poison ivy. I am still battling it, plus it is that time of the quarter for me. How great do I feel? LOL. Anyways, I went back to the doctor today because I started breaking out with a new rash. Lucky me, huh? She put me on another round of steroids. Here I go again, bulking up. Last week the steroids (or at least that's what I am blaming it on) made me gain 2 pounds. But today at the doctor I was back at 207. So I am not sure what is going on. I lost weight the week before my period? What the hell? Now that I am going back on steroids I will need to watch my weight for the next 2 weeks. Anyways, I am going to continue to eat less, add vegetables and fruits when I can and exercise more. Now that I will hopefully not be itching all the flipping time.

Yesterday, I was having a very hard time with my weight and my depression. I was at a wedding and everything was fine, but then I started thinking about my wedding and all the things that went wrong. I just wanted to start bawling and not stop. This whole weekend has been hard. I got mad at Josh Friday night, over something pretty small. Then I got pulled over for running a stop sign and was mad at myself. I got really depressed about my weigh yesterday. I think I need to go back on my my anti-depressants. I know it is that time of the month but I have been pretty emotional since I came off the meds. I need to call my doctor tomorrow to see if I can go back on them or something else.

We'll see how everything goes. I am trying so hard to get myself well, so I can be my best for Josh. We shouldn't be having this many problems 2 months into our marriage. I know it is because of my depression, and some of his depression. He just won't get the treatment he needs. All I can fix is me. You can't make anyone do anything. You can just keep suggesting help and being there for them.

Poison Ivy Sucks!!

So, I did this great work out last weekend and worked in my yard for two hours. Everything was fine and dandy until Monday night when I continued to work in the yard. That night I found the poison ivy. So for the past week I have not worked out because I have been too itchy. I have tried everything to stop the itching and feel better. I have tried clear calamine lotion, Ivy Dry (which has really helped with the itching), pink calamine lotion, hot water/shower, and a hair dryer. I am also on steroids to try to combat it from the inside. So far the only thing that is helping is the ivy-dry. It has done pretty good at stopping the itching. I just wish it would go away!!!

I am beginning to believe that weight loss is not going to work for me. Every week I get started again, find a great workout idea and some how I injure myself. The first week it was lunges, great for my thighs and arse, but then I couldn't walk for a week because I was in so much pain. Last week, I got active in the yard and burned so many calories, but now I have poison ivy and am itchy with weird skin deformations all over me.

Oh well, I will keep on. this week I am suppose to add a piece of fruit. We'll see how that goes.

Yard work is hard work!

I did over 2 hours of yard work. I am still not done but I will be continuing my hard work tomorrow. Today, I mowed the yard. Yes, it was on a riding lawn, but it was still work. I think my abs got a great workout. Sitting up straight and vibrating my way around the yard, for about an hour. Also, Josh and I went out and bought a weed-eater. After, we got it started Josh used it for a while. When it got to be my time, I didn't do so well. I kept hitting the shed and almost fell into the creek. So I have abdicated my throne of weed whacking to Josh. I do, however, get to use the loppers and cut all the big trees down along the creek and up front by the telephone pole. Anyways, time to head to bed, I have to get up early.

Buffets are the devil!

So we went out to celebrate my MIL's birthday. The family decided to go to Prairie Meadows Casino and race track. Well, fine, but I haven't mastered the eating healthy at a buffet. Plus it costs $15 and I want my money worth. Well, I definately ate my money's worth. And then after I stuffed my face until I was really unconfortable for a long time, I felt bad. I knew it wasn't the best move for my diet. I did do some good things yeaterday. Well, they weren't great but I could have done worse for myself. I ate breakfast before going to my training in the morning. Yeah 1 point for breakfast. Then, when I got home I grabbed a Fiber One bar. I thought it would keep me full for a little while with as much fiber as is in it. Well, it didn't but at least I didn't hit a fast food joint for "lunch". Ok so I should have had small meals though out the day instead of saving my calories for the huge meal I ate in the evening that night. But at least I didn't have 2 big meals on top of the huge meal I ate later.

Well, this week is to visualize a healthy life style. I really hope I can keep up with the other 3 goals plus adding this one. I also hope I don't injure myself while I work out because that really didn't help me last week when I could work out for most of the week. I haven't created my menu this week but that will probably be the next post I make today. After I go get dressed and take a walk around the block.

I am also going to have to start preparing for that time of the quarter again. It should be coming in a week or two. Which means I have to get really strict on my diet and exercise so I don't gain any weight during that time. We'll see what happens

Weigh in!!

I weighed in this morning. I am down 1 whole pound. Which isn't too bad! I wish it would be more but I will take it for what I could get. And you would think that would be a motivation for me to keep going, but no, I ate like crap today. I will have to enter that into my Sparkpeople and see how bad I really did do. I have almost got all my water intake for the day. I hope I can get back in to the swing of things and get my diet under control.

I also haven't worked out in a few days because I injured myself Monday. I think I am getting better now, so hopefully I can get back to working out tomorrow. I think tomorrow is a cardio day. Maybe I can get a walk in Ames/Randall.

This weeks goal is to visualize a healthy life. Along, with drinking water, exercising and not eating fast food or Chinese. Well, as sad as it is it is time for me to go to bed.

Good day 2!!

Well, today I had a good day. I stayed within my calorie range, protein and carbs. I was almost under on my carbs!!! I was 7 grams over my fat. And the only reason for that was that I ate peanuts for a snack. It was a good snack because it kept me full for a while. That was until I started craving something sweet. I ate some raisins and that took care of the craving. I even had enough calories for ice cream. I love weight watchers ice cream!!!!

Anyways, I didn't work out today because my butt and thighs are hurting like no other. I did some strength training last night. It involved lunges. Oh my goodness! My arms are also hurting because I actually did modified push ups correctly. I can't wait until the exercises actually start working and toning my body.

Good Day!!!!

I have had my second great day this week. I haven't gotten all my water in yet, but I did stay with in my calorie limit (and get ice cream too). I also did my first strength training session. I use SparkPeople to create my exercises. Today they had me doing lunges....Oh my god, my thighs are killing me right this second. I am hoping they will stop hurting in a few minutes. I think tomorrow find a stretch for the thighs before I do lunges ever again.

I am hoping the fitness center at work will get finished here soon so I can use that. That and I am trying to create a fitness area in my bedroom downstairs. I am considering making a deal with my self that if I work out X many days a week until Christmas I can buy myself some piece of fitness equipment. Be it a treadmill, elliptical or gazelle. I haven't decided yet. It is just an idea. Maybe I will buy a Boflex to work on my toning and weight lifting. Hey maybe Josh will get motivated.

Josh is being a pain in the ass right now. He is not supportive of my weight loss goals. He doesn't seem to think I can do it. Sure I have been trying to lose weight for about 2 years now and gotten no where, but I think I have finally hit rock bottom. I have realized that if I don't change something now I am going to look just like my mom in about 20 years. Not that my mom isn't beautiful but she could stand to lose a few pounds even if only for her own health. I have also decided that my students may not respect me as much. They will figure, if she doesn't care about herself enough to be healthy, why should we care about her. Stupid boys!!!!!
Well, that's enough for me for now. I will write to see how tomorrow is going then. Byes!

Success!!!

I have had success today!!!! I ate with in my calorie range!!! I worked out (walked) for 45 minutes. Tomorrow I am going to check out Curves. That way, I will get some strength training and cardio. I will still do some extra cardio and strength training but this will make sure I get at least a little exercise in every week.

I followed my plan today!!!!!!! Ok so I ate a cookie, and I we feeling bad about that but looking at my whole day I am doing great!!!

Refocused again

Ok, so I have refocused again. I am still following the vice-busting plan, But I am going to start working on planning my meals. I have created a whole menu for this week. I hope to stick to it. I have planned for eating out and for the other activities going on this week. For example, this week our school district is giving us breakfast and lunch one day. I put that in my plan but I will need to make sure I still eat healthy with my choices. I will also need to make sure that I take 1/2 my meal home one night when we are eating out. That way I have lunch for the next day since that is my plan. Yeah, I know plans change but I need to try really hard to stick with my plan. When I don't is when I end up failing on my lifestyle change.

I took pictures of myself this morning to show me at my heaviest (or what I hope to think I is my heaviest). The other day I checked out "The Biggest Loser" website. It had many pictures of others before and after pictures. I hope to post my before and after pictures on there some day. It was very motivational to see how others have lost so much weight. I have about 52 lbs to lose. That's about 1/4 of me. I can do this. I can!

Anyways, ot's time to get walking. I am going to go walk around the block. Then come back and finish cleaning out the kitchen. If anyone wants some snacks I got to get rid of some really bad for me snacks.

AHHHHH....

Ok, So I really don't have anyone to blame but me for my lack of weight loss. And apparently, I think I have give up the wrong diet vice. Recently, I have decided that Chinese take-out is my diet vice. I really need to stock our fridge so I don't go out and buy things that are not healthy for me. For example, chinese take out. I has been so easy to just run to Hy-Vee and pick up a meal. I think this is my true diet vice. With as many calories and fat (if I get the sweet and sour chicken) that are in Chinese take out, I have not been doing myself right. This week all around has been a bad week for my vice busting diet. I haven't gotten in my water on most days.

The goal this week was fast food. Ok so I haven't gone to a place with a drive through. Yeah for me a small accomplishment. I also haven't cooked at home really at all this week. So that means I must have eaten somewhere else. If fact I did. I ate a sit down restaurants where their portions are out of control and I didn't bring any home with me. So that means I ate it all. Guess how many calories that must have been.

The goal for this upcoming week is exercise before TV or computer. So that means I really should get off this computer and get my but moving. Oh but I am too lazy today. I did mow the lawn yesterday, but we have a riding lawn mower so I don't think it was that beneficial. I did clean and vacuum the house. Yeah a small step. I am thinking of going to Curves for a few months. I have a two week free trial from Avon that I need to use up soon. When I go they will fill me in on how much body fat I have and take all kinds of measurements. I think with my new job I should be able to afford the membership fee. And it's only 30 minutes. I can come home and shower after the workout. If they don't have showers there.

I am getting really disappointed with my lack of weight loss. I have actually gained weight this week. There have been a lot of changes in my life this week also however. I have started a new job, quit another job, applied for a second job, ate like crap, and went off my Lexapro. That has been a fiasco, but I think I am beginning to recover. I keep reading more about diet and exercise and nothing seems to work. I think my goal for next week (along with visualizing my healthy life) will be to track everything that enters my mouth. If I get an honest answers as to what is going in my mouth I may be able to figure out why I am not losing weigh but in fact gaining it.

Well, I think I am going to get in the shower and go to Curves. Maybe I can get my tour and fat analysis done today. I will post how that is going. We'll see ya later!

More disappointment and drama

So I came off of my Lexapro since the last time I posted. Well, it hasn't been the best time. I went out with friends Tuesday night and started bawling at the bar. What type of person does that? I really don't even know what made me cry. Other than Josh had been slightly upset with me about a small purchase I made. (and forgot to tell him about) I called the doctor the next day and they say I am normal for coming off my meds. The nurse said to try to stick it our for about a week more and if it doesn't get better than to go back on the meds. Well see what goes on.

I am also struggling with my weight loss this week. I have give up soda, and haven't eaten fast food all week and haven't lost any weight. I am about to give up but I will keep trying for a few more weeks. If I don't see improvement soon I will have to look into something different. Next week starts my exercise before TV and computer. I am hoping that will work. I have been walking with a friend a few days a week. It hasn't seemed to help so I will have to start working out more. I also need to work on my diet but we'll see when I get around to that.

Well, I start training tomorrow for school. I am really excited to get started. I am a little anxious though too. We'll see how it goes.

Disappointment and refocus

Well, today I stepped on the scale to see if I had made any progress with the small steps that I had been trying. Guess what? I actually gained another freaking pound. Normally this would be the point I give up and go crawling back to my soda. But today I didn't I decided to keep trying. I am going to keep trying for the next 11 weeks and see how this works. I know I should be eating a really healthy lunch, dinner and breakfast but since those changes haven't been on my plan yet I really haven't been doing that. Hopefully, if I keep up my water intake and no fast food (I really need to stop eating out though.) it will finally work this time. I think this is how my friend Tracy lost weight.

I think I will go back and re-read the section for this week. With that I will start the affirmations. That is one thing I haven't been doing enough yet.

I keep telling myself that I even if lose the weight at my 12 week mark or even a little after I will still look amazing on my honeymoon.

Oh yeah, I quit taking my Lexapro today. We will see how that affects my mood and my weight loss. I have heard that anti-depressants can cause weight gain. But really thinking about it I am thinking it has more to do with my eating and exercising habits than the meds I am on.

Exercise is the next step in the Vice -Busting Diet. I may try to get some extra exercise in this week to jump start my weight loss. I may even try to sneak some weight lifting in to help. We'll see if I really even get around to it or not. It has been so darn hot this past week I haven't wanted to do anything. Oh well we'll see how it goes. Anyways, I need to go work on our menu for this week and maybe some reading.

So I have done really good with drinking my water. The last two days I have gotten at least 8 glasses of water in. Yeah for me! As for my food though, today was my first day not eating fast food. My definition for fast food is anything I would be able to go through a drive through for. So Subway doesn't count. That's where I went for lunch. Last night, Josh had a going away party for one of his friends so I ended up with chicken strips and fires at the bar. I also had some spinach- artichoke dip later the night. My tummy was not feeling good after that food. I ate way to much. Tonight wasn't much better. We went to Amana for dinner. The restaurant we went to serves food family style. So it is like an all you can eat buffet, that comes right to your table. It was amazing! It wasn't amazing for my food plan/diet. Oh well, at least it wasn't fast food.

Progress

Yesterday was an ok day. I did get my water in. And that is my goal so I achieved my goal. I even got some exercise in also. My friend Tracy and I have been going walking at the mall after se gets off work. It has really helped me to get more active. Tracy is a very good role model. Over the past year or so she has managed to get her weight under control, got her depression under control, and is working on a financial budget. These are the exact goals I am working on. For her weight she is only a few pounds from her goal weight and looks amazing. She has gotten off of her depression meds and is working to control it on her own. That is my next goal. I will be coming off of my meds in about a week and a half. I hope everything goes well. As for my finanical standing. I am planning on being debt free before I am 30. I have about 6 years to get that done. This means I will be spending almost all of my money towards my bills and little for play money. I am getting a second job to help with that. I am planning to start working at Bath and Body Works for the holiday season. This will provide me with a little money left over to use to play with. I really hope I can achieve this goal. I have read a lot of money/budgeting books to help me with this.

First Post

I figured I would at least make one post now that I started a new blog. In this blog I plan to write about my trials and tribulations with my weight loss journey. I am hoping to reach a healthy weight of 155 before my honeymoon in November. It may not be possible but I am going to try. I have discovered a new "diet". It is called the Vice busting diet. Each week you add a new challenge/goal for that week, along with mastering the goals already added. This week I am working on drinking between 64 oz to half my weight in oz of water. Today I achieved the 64 oz. I think it will be a few more days or weeks before I get to half my weight in oz.

I have recently also had an a-ha moment in my weight loss story. I went to the doctor this past week for a regular check up and weighed in over 200lbs. At that moment I realized if I don't do something soon about my weight I will end up looking and being just like my mom. Don't get me wrong I love my mom to death. And I am so very proud of all the things she has accomplished in her life, but I don't want to have her health problems. She is borderline diabetic, has had a double bypass, and has a very strong caffeine addiction for years. Along with my mom's health, my dad doesn't have the greatest health either. He is full blown diabetic, has a long history of heart disease and is very overweight. I am hoping to show them and everyone else that you can lose weight and you don't have to give up all your favorite foods at once. It doesn't take a major overhaul of your diet to lose weight. Yeah, I probably won't lose it as fast as I would like to but I will still lose it. Anyways, that's enough for now. I need to get ready for bed. I hope to post again tomorrow and as many days after that as I can.

~Mel-o